today was an interesting day.  i hate working.  i really do.  but for some strange reason, i feel like I got this blast of love showed own my throat.,and I can keep from smiling.  I should be pissed, like I don't get paid that much.  I don't have a vehicle to and from work, my boobs and butt are ginormous, i look like i should be in a hiphop video. i hate most hiphop videos!!!!  but overall i can't complain..i feel like one day I'll look back on this moment and laugh..I have this feeling like something great is about to happen.  Maybe it's my imagination or just wishful thinking.  tomorrow I got to the city all by myself.  i'm turning into a big girl slowly moving upward.  i'm gonna go shower, burn some incense, and jam.  I'm sooo tired.  When I got back home today from work 11:00pm!!, I felt really drunk or drugged.  Like someone slipped a date rape drug in my drink or something.  All I had today was avocados  mangoes, and pieces or orange chicken (soo yummy).  I then bought a coffee from McDonald's..probably someone slipped something in my coffee when I wasn't looking.  oh well, everything will work out. goodnight x